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〈完美的一天 A Perfect Day〉
尋日(2019年7月21日)爭少少就係完美嘅一天。
It is almost a perfect day yesterday (21 July 2019).
我係一個普通嘅香港市民,八十後、基督徒、亦係天水圍人,尋日係星期日,我如常同太太出返九龍區嘅教會返崇拜,食完個晏就同太太同朋友去咗尖沙咀行街,之後喺海運戲院睇《反斗奇兵4》,然後食完飯就坐西鐵返屋企。
I am a normal Hong Kong citizen. Born in the 80's, a Christian who lives in Tin Shui Wai. Yesterday was a normal Sunday. I went back to church to join the worship with my wife in Kowloon, joined our friends for lunch in Tsim Sha Tsui, watched Toy Story 4 at the Grand Ocean cinema, and went back home after dinner by West Rail.
大約晚上十點幾喺柯士甸站上西鐵,上咗西鐵一切都好平常,直到接近十一點左右去到元朗站,月台上面傳來大叫「有人受傷、需要支援」嘅呼叫聲,而列車亦因為混亂無法開車,我就落咗去大堂睇一睇發生咩事,老婆留咗喺車廂入面。原來大堂果度一班喺閘入面嘅人已經開緊遮,佢哋俾一班閘外面身穿白色tee裇嘅人以木棍、水樽、棒球棍襲擊緊,出唔到閘。我最初觀察白衫人大約有四五十人左右,都係中年,亦有較年長嘅,識講廣東話粗口,兇神惡煞,非常激動。
At about 10pm, we were at the Austin Station, everything looked normal in the West Rail train. Our train arrived at Yuen Long Station just before 11pm, we heard a screaming, "Someone's hurt, we need backups!", and our train was stopped because of this confusion. I asked my wife to stay in the train, while I got off and went down to the station lobby to see what happened. Inside the gate, there were people holding their umbrellas up, defending from a group of gangsters who were all wearing white-shirts, attacking people inside the gate with wooden sticks, water bottles and baseball bats. People were trapped inside. There were around 40 to 50 white-shirt gangsters, mainly in their middle-aged, some were even older, shouted fiercely in Cantonese foul languages with agitation.
閘內地下留有鮮血血跡,我亦望到遠處閘外大堂有一名傷者受傷倒地,不斷俾白衫人凶緊,因為情況太危險我就無出閘幫手。我本身後退緊,打算上返車廂,就喺呢個時候閘內嘅市民突然全部退後,一湧而來,部份人衝入廁所,其他人就喺我身邊經過衝上扶手電梯梯同樓梯上月台,打算入車廂。
There were fresh blood stains on the floor inside the gate. Outside the gate not far away, there was someone injured, lying down on the floor, constantly threatening by a white-shirt gangster. I did not go out and help him due to the dangerous situation and I tended to go back up to the train. At that very moment, people inside the gate were suddenly moved back towards me. Some rushed into the washroom, others ran passed me and dashed to the platform through the escalators and staircase, and planned to reach the train for safety.
我見身邊有人跌倒,想幫又幫唔到手。然後白衫人已經殺到埋身,我正準備跑上扶手電梯上月台嘅時候就俾人從後襲擊咗後腦一下,我一邊跑一邊回望,睇到一個白衫人拎住枝棒球棍對住扶手電梯上面嘅人(包括我)大聲叫罵「 ___ 你老母」(第一個字聽得唔太清楚,請自行填充。)
Someone fell down next to me, I wished to help but I couldn't. The white-shirt gangsters were fast approaching, and I was about to rush back to the escalator. All of a sudden, I was attacked at my hindbrain, out of nowhere! I kept running and looked back at the attacker, it was a white-shirt gangster who was holding a baseball bat, yelling to the people (including me) on the escalator: YOU MOTHER _______ ! (I didn't hear it clearly, fill-in as you like)
我繼續上返月台,之後回頭望佢並無再追上嚟。我同其他乘客求奇衝入咗最尾一卡車廂,本身我都唔知自己流血,後來有其他乘客話我知我流緊血至知自己受咗傷。最後有啲熱心嘅乘客幫我消毒同包扎傷口(回想返先記得我咁大個仔都係第一次用M巾),同埋讓咗個位俾我坐。
I kept fleeing back to the platform, that white-shirt gangster had stopped chasing us. I went in the train with other passengers, and I did not even realized that I was bleeding until someone told me. Some very friendly passengers helped me to clean and wrap the wound (well, that was the first time I used sanitary pad), and nice enough to give me a seat.
過程之中我一邊用電話聯絡返老婆同佢報平安,佢話有人入咗車廂打人。而身邊嘅乘客都好不安,因為好擔心白衫嘅黑社會(我嗰刻至知原來係黑社會嚟嘅)會衝入嚟打人,好想快啲開車。同時亦開始有人話前面車廂(我係車尾)已經打緊,情況好混亂,好多人都好驚同鼓譟。唔知過咗幾耐(好似港鐵出咗聲明「詳細交代事件」,應該有寫詳細時間),我就坐返同一班列車去天水圍站,匯合返我老婆同遇到救護員,送咗去天水圍醫院,聯咗三針。我喺急症室等候期間,都不斷有被打受傷嘅人送入嚟急症室,估計有五至六個都係喺西鐵被襲的。
I was talking to my wife through the phone throughout the whole process. She told me that those gangsters were attacking people inside the train. Passengers around me were extremely worried, we were all afraid that those white-shirt Triad gangsters (now I knew they are Triad) will storme in and attack. We all hope that the train will move out from the station soon. At the same time, people were saying that there were attacks at the train head (I was at the tail), we were all in confusions and panics. After some minutes (looks like the MTR has made a statement regarding the detailed time), the train has finally moved, and I arrived Tin Shui Wai Station at last. I found my wife, we went straight to an Ambulanceman and admitted to the Tin Shui Wai Hospital afterwards, where I had my three stitches done. While I was waiting in the Emergency Room, 5 or 6 more injured people were sent in due to the West Rail attack.
急症室當值嘅警察都有主動問我係咪需要報案,我考慮咗一陣最後都同意咗,後來重案組亦係大約兩三個鐘後嚟同我落口供,佢問完個人資料之後,第一個問題就係問我有無出去遊行。我答無,佢好似有少少疑惑,我就拎返我張染咗血漬嘅《反斗奇兵4》嘅票尾比佢睇,佢先至再繼續同我落口供。最後我搞到清晨五點幾至返到屋企。
Policeman stationed in the Emergency Room has asked if I need to file a report. I had agreed after some consideration. The Crime Unit has also arrived after 2 to 3 hours to take my statement. After taking my personal information, he asked directly, "Did you join the protest march today?" I said, "No". He looked doubt. I took out the Toy Story 4 ticket stained with my blood and showed him, then he stopped questioning me. Eventually, I went home at about 5am.
其實本身尋日都係好平常嘅一日,同老婆行街、睇戲、食飯。之前我一直都有留意社會上發生嘅事,知道社會瀰漫住好多負面情緒。所以尋日我本身都打算俾自己抖一抖,放低時事一日。無奈就喺我休息、喺我最平常嘅生活當中,遇上咗無差別嘅襲擊,正所謂「我唔搞政治、政治一樣會嚟搞我」。我俾人扑濕,一定係我有做錯,而我最錯嘅係咩?我諗應該係因為我睇咗美帝嘅卡通電影。
It was a very normal day yesterday - shopping with my wife, watching movie, have a great dinner. I know what had happened lately in this city and how desperate people are these days. So I planned to have a relaxed day and free from the news. The ironic part is, on the day I was trying to rest and have a life, it was the day I encountered the indiscriminate attack. There is this saying, "you don't mess with politics, politics will mess with you eventually". I was attacked, so I must have done something wrong? What did I do wrong? Oh, I guess it must have been about me watching the American animation.
我知道我受嘅傷,同喺中上環俾警察無預警下開槍射傷嘅市民比,實在係微不足道(其實佢哋更應被關注!)。不過身邊聽到我經歷嘅朋友都好驚、好忿怒,其實我都係好忿怒、好無助,我地都無辦法明白到底點解坐西鐵返屋企會俾黑社會打,而點解警察又唔嚟阻止?但我更加感受到嘅係市民果種恐懼同絕望感,人群閃躲之際有人跌倒,有人落單,大家衝入車廂果陣會唔會發生人踩人?我老婆都陪伴咗個受驚而情緒失控嘅少女。大家都好驚、好恐懼、好絕望、好furious。人係受威脅之下,會出現figh-or-flight的反應,喺腎上腺素嘅驅使之下,一係會反擊,一係會逃走,但手無寸鐵嘅市民被圍困係車廂中被人撳住嚟打,既不能fight , 又不能flight,果種絕望同恐懼的確唔係三言兩語講得明白,往後嘅心理創傷同陰影烙印,可以係一生之久。
Comparing to those protesters shot by the Policemen without warning in Sheung Wan and Central, I was nothing (we should pay more attention to them instead!). But friends around me were shocked and outraged about my attack. To be frank, I was shocked too. Who would imagine that attack will come when I was just taking the West Rail train back home? And where were the Policemen when we need them? And most of all, I experienced the same fear and desperation with the passengers. People were dodging, falling down, left behind, there could be stampede when we rushed back to the train! My wife had also stayed and comforted a young girl who had almost lost control because of the frightening situation. Everyone was afraid, worried, hopeless and furious. When people are being threatened, there is a response called "fight-or-flight". The adrenaline will drive you to either fight back or take flight. Unfortunately, when we were unarmed and trapped inside the train, we cannot fight back, we cannot take flight, there is no word to describe the despair and fear in that scenario. The psychological trauma and shadow can be life-long.
的確,喺某啲人眼中,無論我係幾無辜被打,我走得慢所以我都依然係抵死,又或者一定係我經過元朗所以抵打。但我呢刻已經無力去鬧爆佢哋,咁做對我嚟講亦係無乜意思。我唔覺得襲擊我嘅人有幾大機會會被繩之於法,我亦都唔想停留喺去點樣出呢啖氣。難道戰爭中國家的政府會為一個被殺嘅平民作出調查麼?戰時社會有戰時嘅生存法則,我不得不面對現實:香港其實同戰爭社會已經無乜大分別,香港警隊同呢個政府係點做嘢,我已經無興趣知。
Some people may say, regardless of how innocent I am, that still, I was to blame. Maybe I ran too slow so I was meant to be attacked. Maybe I passed by Yuen Long so I should have known it better. I do not want to debate with their accusations, it is meaningless anyway. In my believe, there is no hope in taking the attacker down in my case, and I have no intention to take revenge. You see, when there is war in a country, the government will not take it serious when a citizen got killed. Wartime society has its own law of survival, and I have to deal with this reality: Hong Kong is in war now, and I have zero interest in what the HK Police Force and the government will take serious into.
但我都仍然想表達,香港人真係好有愛,喺亂世之時,大家都仍然能夠守望相助,我感受到被愛。車上嘅乘客不斷安慰我,不斷喺有限嘅物資之中幫我消毒止血做急救,救護員都幫咗我好多,我嘅朋友本身已經返咗喺市區嘅屋企都衝返入嚟睇我,亦有朋友係專登揸車入嚟,我嘅屋企人陪我喺急症室等通宵。所有朋友嘅安慰、慰問同祝福我都感受到。
There is one thing I must say. Hong Kong people are really full of passion. During this chaotic time, people are still willing to look after each other. I am blessed with their love: Passengers on the train have comforted me, treated my wound carefully when there is lack of first-aid materials; the professional treatment by the Ambulancemen; some friends have even rushed back after arriving their homes in downtown, one even drove his car all the way to the hospital; my family who have stayed with me in the Emergency Room throughout the whole night; all the comforts, loves and blessings from my friends…I am so blessed.
我唔係想講受襲嘅事唔重要,或者我要淡化、粉飾太平,我相信任何一個有良知嘅人都會對所有尋晚係西鐵上無辜受襲嘅市民感到心痛同忿怒。不過,我亦知道我哋呢種忿怒已經無處可容,因為呢個社會嘅制度已經崩壞,極權肆虐到一個點係唔可能再容許我哋有自己嘅思想同感受。塗鴉一個圖案可以係破壞政府管治基礎嘅底線,如此荒謬嘅話仲係出自一區首長之口,譴責圖案受破壞,比危殆嘅人命還緊要,我就明白到,無人性嘅極權眼中又點會睇到平民百姓人命價值嘅可貴?呢個邪惡嘅政治制度不過係想透過「收買人命」嘅恐慌嚟製造威權管治嘅理由,逼使人民放棄思想同抗爭,做個順民去拜服極權,等佢哋以為自己可以千秋萬世。
I will not say that the attack is not important, or lighten it up or paper over the cracks. Anyone have conscious will definitely be heartbroken and ambushed about the attack at the West Rail. But the truth is that, our outrageous has nowhere to escape. Our society system is corrupting, the totalitarianism is raging brutally to a point where no one is allowed to have their own thinking and feeling. When a simple graffiti is an act to test the bottom line of the government's governance, when the Chief Executive ridiculously condemns the destruction of a symbolic device more than the vicious attack to innocent citizen, I know that our lives have absolutely no values to these senior officials. This evil political system is taking lives, creating the chaos and the reason for their stuck-up governance, forcing the people to give up fighting, while eventually the people will worship them as gods with their kingdom lasts forever.
但係,在荒謬絕倫、置身喺邪惡陰謀嘅被襲經驗之中,我感受到身邊仍然有可愛嘅人,無論係素未謀面嘅乘客、救護員、定係我嘅朋友同家人,係佢地嘅愛同關心,使我能夠克服果種面對荒謬時嘅無助感,令我能夠有信心繼續行落去,有勇氣去面對果份無可躲避嘅恐懼,有盼望去戰勝果啲因擔心無差別隨機攻擊而帶嚟嘅心理壓力。
However, in this ridiculous attack experience under the evil conspiracy, there are lovely people around me: passengers , Ambulancemen, friends and family, for their loves and comforts give me the strength to overcome the helpless feeling throughout this absurd situation, the faith to move on, the courage to face the inevitable fear, and the hope to concur the in-depth pressure caused by the desperation of the indiscriminate attack.
昨日的我,經歷了被襲擊,令我完美的一天不再完美,但我卻在遭害和恐懼當中發現了愛和勇氣,是香港人守望的愛。
I was attacked yesterday, and it made my perfect day imperfect. But I found love and courage in the time of danger and fear. Hong Kong people do watch over for each other.
是的,香港人很有愛,所以我們值得擁有比現在更好的社會領袖和政治制度,We deserve better。因為你們有愛,所以我能夠不再怕遭害。因為你們有愛,所以我能夠堅持這個心願。因為你們有愛,所以我有信心香港人能夠一齊撐落去。
HongKongers are so full of love, that is why we deserve better society leaders and political system. We DO deserve better. Because of your love, I do not fear the danger. Because of your love, I can hold tight to hope. Because of your love, I have faith that HongKongers can stick together and make our own future.
香港人,加油💪🏻!
HongKongers, ADD OIL!
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朋友話,睇完演唱會,個心頭暖返啲,我都係咁話,香港又可惡又可愛。
[演唱會現場] 《HOCC 2015 Reimagine HK》 23/8
羨慕了台灣人幾個月, 何韻詩的《Reimagine》回到了香港. 不在紅館的舞台, 而是在較小的伊館, 從舞台角度看, 能發揮的的確沒那麼多. 但伊館的小舞台勝在貼地, 與歌迷們的距離較細. 作為18種香港的一部份, 作為一個回歸於「人」/「人情」的項目, 這個場地其實比紅館更佳. 這一晚, 在伊館, 我們一起尋找對香港, 對香港人的一份情.
雷聲雨聲, 帶出「生於亂世 有種責任」. 何韻詩走入人群, 坐在觀眾席上, 唱著《艷光四射》; 披上雨褸, 遮風擋雨, 暗喻佔領時的責任. 走到台上, 脫下雨褸, 回復歌手的身份. 由《滿地可》開始, 分享她對香港的情. 《滿地可》本來是談她對加拿大老家的感覺, 但此時此刻, 經過種種, 放在這裏談香港, 也非常實在. 「但我拼拼搏搏活了這些年 在這裡 有否很心虛 曾經愛過的可有追 還是漸被過濾」. 在何炳的鋼琴伴奏下, 一同尋根.
舞台的左邊有一條樓梯直通二樓的小房間, 何韻詩在樓梯上, 帶點疏離地, 看著大熒幕上的昔日老香港. 香港, 曾經是一個東方的小漁村, 回頭來看, 這種純樸已經不再.「這香港已不是我的地頭 就當我在外地飄流」香港, 已經變了《美麗新香港》.
何韻詩的其他樂隊成員此時出場, 何韻詩亦穿上斗篷, 以旅人的身份回到地面, 回到當今的香港. 在近代香港的影象映襯下, 用結他引領大家見識「我的家 很擠迫 迫得差點我也放不下」的《光榮之家》, 再full band上陣, 「全場在Why ya ya ya yeah~~ 垃圾堆之內齊高唱」, 用繁榮象徵的高樓大廈, 對照歌詞中的「垃圾堆」, 意念不言而喻.
演唱會第一節的轉折點在此出現.「全球被你打動 全球被你鼓動 其時大幹一頓 仍為後世歌頌」《你是八十年代》的folk, 不止音樂上出色, 亦帶出了演唱會的另一主題 -- 做自己; 再由翻唱明哥的《親愛的瑪嘉烈》承接, 「行裝更多 年資更淺 離家更是遠 竟可以支撐到目前 誠心祝福你 捱得到新天地」是勉勵年青人, 也是自勉; 高潮位在於翻唱陳奕迅的《時代曲》, 結他手及bass手走到台前, 與何韻詩jam歌, 將《時代曲》由acoustic guitar玩到後段的pop rock, 非常精采. 「日後我會如何 我也沒有奈何 卻怕在今晚之後 不知有誰來迫我 轉唱另一些歌」切合何韻詩的一種自憐, 但在強勁伴秦下, 亦有一種做好每晚演出的效果.
找到自我, 但雷雨未減, 颱風之下, 進入演唱會的第二節. 何韻詩放下結他, 輕裝上陣, 以《幽默感》應對橫風橫雨的大時代. 「在最壞最壞那日 遇最壞最壞那事 是它讓生命不用壞到底」影片中, 一個個綠燈公仔, 脫離既有框框遊走香港, 尾段黃色傘兵乘降落傘在鏡頭前劃過, 是18種香港的精神, 也回顧了香港過去一年的重要時刻.「能學成諧趣吧 能學成滑稽嗎 惆悵未算可怕 能笑就笑走它 別自尋煩惱吧 讓事情漫畫化 來蓋著那傷疤」傷疤總不能永恆遮蓋, 單靠幽默感, 也不足以改變現狀. 熒幕上一張張在後巷的空櫈, 著實有點蒼涼, 但一棵棵艱苦生長的植物, 帶來了一份的生命力.「We're gonna tear it apart. We're gonna make this place worth living, worth relying next time.」在最壞的時刻, 我們都不用做無臉人, 《All is fair》, 「All is fair in love and war」. 面對一座座高樓大廈, 一道道的屏風高牆, 在冷酷的世界中, 每一個人的確渺少得像《沙》「即使身價像細沙 都想得你留神嗎? 都想可以成為荒土千里 被北風吹起 吹進你眼內細沙」縱使微少, 仍然盡力讓你能看得見, 希望你知道《世界變了樣》「沒有不可轉換的對象 沒有不可顛覆的信仰 世界變了樣」嘗試透過Boyz' Reborn及soco小朋友的純真聲音, 讓你看清真象, 並結合傘下爸媽, 透視群眾的力量.
即使, 世界真的變了樣.
經過了沉重的一節, 演唱會風格一轉, 毛記電視亂入, 繼續每晚舉行的《勁曲金曲優秀選》, 是晚得獎歌是煩膠到不得了, 死不落榜的《亞視永恆》, 頒獎前先播岩布仙尼唱生日歌的經典片段, 之後再由河布仙尼(河國榮)主唱, 笑到癲. 但在未入場前, 我已經與朋友說, 我最希望見到的得獎者是林雪!!!! 非常渴望可以親耳聽到林雪唱《烚麵埋伏》. 我重申一次, 林雪的走音實在神級精采, 河布仙尼的精境, 仍難掩我心中的一絲遺憾.
毛記電視退場後, 何韻詩再度出場, 帶著她的花花草草和單車, 展示她的世界觀. 《Goo Vibration》 及《小丸子的心事》只是回饋fans的前菜. 打開有點像太空艙的單車後座儲物箱, 望天高唱《愛德蒙多》, 反思教育的真諦才是正題. 「字母歌唱到下課 在社會上政治課 沒法躲 知識滲出的恆河 洪流浸死了我 是古書哪本的錯」以「恆河」連結星河, 找到了David Bowie經典的《Space Oddity》「Here am I sitting round my tin can, far above the Moon, Planet Earth is blue and there's nothing I can do」再「連繫上」黎明的《情深說話未曾講》「原來仍然是你 叫我永不斷自強 如晨光」.由《愛德蒙多》望天, 到《Space Oddity》出走宇宙, 最後以《情深說話未曾講》帶大家返回地球. 由期望救續到孤身出走到找到伙伴. 這三首歌的歌單編排相當獨到. 而以連繫為題, 這一節來到每晚指定的skype連線, 今晚的主角是何韻詩的舊老闆葛民輝. 阿葛自稱家中無wifi, 又不懂裝skype, 最終親自來到現場, 並一同唱了首徐小鳳的《漫漫前路》成為了是晚意想不到的嘉賓.
演唱會來到中後段, 到了飲歌時間, 但演唱會的主題未變. 《千千萬萬個我》的「若果我陣亡 留給你 留給你 填好這革命情歌 延續天真的我」繼續圍繞勇氣及做自己; 全場大合唱的《木紋》借「來年樹倒身影孤煙花散 情長未可推翻化不淡」講情未變, 並以《美空雲雀》的「同病抱擁 扶持上進 天下為公 靠携手相信」作互勉. 作為香港人, 我想, 大家都聽得懂.
演唱會的最後一節有街頭點歌時間. 何韻詩團隊走訪了曾經合作的伙伴單位, 也做了些街頭訪問, 唱一些他們希望聽的歌. 周杰倫的《菊花台》這晚遇上了《癡情司》是意想不到的合襯. 最後幾首歌, 緊扣演唱會的兩大核心主題, 翻唱張國榮的《我》及我極喜愛的《鋼鐵是怎樣煉成的》, 固然是談自我. 《是有種人》就將對香港的情, 昇華至另一層次, 在Francis So的高空time lapse之下, 香港出現了很難得的一種美, 不是說香港不美, 而是比想像中更美, 最後一個鏡頭, 日出之時獅子山從雲端而出, 配上「對得起自己和時代」的字句, 讓人動容. 演唱會以Pink的舊歌《Dear Mr. President》作結, 沒有大聲疾呼, 而是自彈結他, 溫婉提問, 香港為甚麼變了這個模樣.
作為何韻詩積極參與社會運動, 參與佔領後的首個大型演出, 這個演唱會的政治色彩比想像中淡, 沒有不斷掛在口邊, 沒有不斷表現憤怒, 也沒有唱《撐起雨傘》. 有印象何韻詩講過(不記得是facebook還是訪問), 大意是現時的政治社會環境, 令大家變得兩極, 不願意聽, 不願意了解他人的意見. 今次的演唱會, 放棄硬橋硬馬, 而是用柔性的聲音, 細數香港變了並再作反思. 這不是一場政治音樂會, 小節雖然有佔領及社會抗爭的身影, 但真正的核心是自我與人心.
這個演唱會名為《Reimagine》, 中文直譯是重新想像, 台灣場的中文名叫《自定義》, 是對生活, 對自我, 對社會的重新定義, 亦劃下註腳, 希望大家自我感受她的演唱會. 在我來看, 這是刻意收起固有演唱會模式, 與大家一起走出佔領, 再反思如何保留自我, 勉勵繼續堅持, 重塑生活態度, 感受人間之情的一次演出. 演唱會的其中一個片段, 用上了《可可》作背景音樂, 這是一首我十分喜愛的歌, 而放在這裏也十分合用. 「話我蠢 還是信 神力天生總有用 即使此際我還沒有搞懂」
香港, 雖然有很多問題, 但還是有它美好的一面. 就正如《是有種人》的那段片, 香港的美, 可以超乎大家的想像. 願大家守護香港的美, 對得起自己和時代. 共勉之.
《光榮之家》
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEEbSrjDzO4
《時代曲》
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xRQIxQe34pUzxbu
《沙》
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G4X8sopML44
《木紋》
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=goCgn-fmfMY
《是有種人》
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Nu-YUKmMhQ
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20/59。
昨天只與她在電話閒談,今天放工後我也是獨個兒回家看電影Kill Time,
晚飯只吃泡面,喝著白開水卻忘了水有否煲過,只穿孖煙通,滿臉鬍子,
頹廢得很,但我享受這滄桑感,像滿身包袱卻處之泰然。
螢幕上播放的是恐懼鬥室,畫面一幕比一幕血腥。
我自小害怕驚悚鬼怪電影,連周星馳的回魂夜、TVB的奇幻潮、亞視的我和也不敢看,
小學時期更更因聽到半夜傳出的電梯升降聲而失眠,
要在晨光全滲房裡才睡得著一會兒,卻又要上學,
還有「被鬼壓」、電梯門無故在十四層打開、深夜在長樓梯看到綠光...
一切經歷都令我遠離會任何令人膽顫心驚的電影、劇集、故事。
她沒有約我,我也不想婆媽的求她見面,只在想愛時才愛,
因為愛情其實都不是那麼絢麗,「情話」也只是「情到濃時的謊話」。
不要誤會,我不是已經把她拋之腦後,
而是已像她一樣隨意忘情,隨意在情感痕癢時才抓一抓止痕。
直到晚上十一時仍是百無聊賴,瀏覽器仍然打開,看完一套又一套恐懼鬥室,
才發現原來我已不再膽小,這些恐佈電影著在比愛情電影好看,
好像更真實貼近人生,起馬我每次在低頭洗面時,都會害怕有長髮女鬼站在我背後,
反而身處夜巴黎,在鐵塔的閃爍下擁著愛人激吻才是一個遙遠不可實現的幻象。
看著咒怨,白臉小孩在地上爬著,
那快要被殺的女人嚇得「啊」一聲時,電話就傳來她的訊息,「Hi...are you free for a chat?」。
「當然!我分秒都在想著妳。」
「Really...?Me too...!I miss you very much!」
「那妳又不找我?」
「I am busy...」
「我只在看電影,妳這幾天在忙什麼?能跟我說?」
「I m not gonna tell you...」
「那你找我有什麼事嗎?」
「Can we visit Sha Tin tomorrow?」
「應該可以。」
「Do you feel bored going out with me?」
「不用問吧?Never!」
「You don't wanna go with me?please be honest...」
「真的,但這不是陪妳,而是大家約會,我也會開心。」
「Thanks...remember to tell me when you feel pressured again...」
「隨心的愛令我與妳一起時不再感到有壓力。」
「I'll always love you. I love you more and more...」
「OH!我都想每天起床時,都看到妳熟睡在我旁。」
「Can I come to live with you?」
「真的?」
「Kidding. 你唔係以為我真係咁想見到你掛?」
「你唔係以為我真係會鍾意妳掛?」
「Ah...be serious...So, Can we meet at Sha Tin station tomorrow at 7:00p.m.?I need to sleep now, so sleeply today.」
「無問題,我會準時出現。最近妳都早睡得很,晚安了!」
「Good Night!」
掛線後,我把燈開上,繼續在幽黑中看電影,腿放在電腦桌上。
不要緊吧!
她忙於與男友談情,把時間分給他,乃是預料之內,
縱使我偶然會想完全把她估有,
將他男朋友由她的記憶中消除。
然而,我不可能抱怨她什麼,要求她什麼。
是的...!
是的...!
我不應忘記她只是讓我尋歡試愛的女伴,
我也淪為一個只供她填滿空檔的無名氏。
這樣承認殘酷的現實才對吧?
我是妳的誰?
妳是我的誰?
我們永遠都是一張缺塊的拼圖,
我們一直興奮的將不同的幸福貼上,
卻不會拼到最後的繽紛色彩。
屬於我們的關係到最後究竟會怎樣?
我會舒坦地躺於妳心裡某角落,記著笑過的面容;
還是妳會遺下一塊染血的花瓣,剩下一升伊人淚?
對了...!
對了...!
我也不應介懷妳只愛我萬分之一,不應在意妳每次因要與他的Skype而把我閒置。
我們極力裝作對方不算什麼,裝說笑隱瞞心底裡的每份感覺,
卻又在每晚睡覺前,都不期然想要跟對方說聲晚安。